I have another blog. I blog for The Clinton News on usually pointless things, like how things I've learned tend to rub off on your lifestyle. I try to make it about things going on in Clinton as much as possible. Things like 5K's and festivals and the such. However, I've been slacking off of the blog for nearly two months, so I have recently picked it back up.
The thing, though, that has always bugged me about it is the fact that I can't be personal on it. Sure, readers want to see personality in the post, but the blog isn't supposed to be about my life, just my thoughts. I figured I'd pick this one back up as well, and have my blog. Textured Observations. Me.
The new year has already kicked off, and boy are the expectations piling up. Five days into it, thoughts about the new president, his financial secretary bidding farewell, a friend has died in a car wreck (though technically that was 2008, I'm sure the mourning has continued), a coworker's last day is Friday, and Meg's birthday is Saturday. Talk about a to do list.
But I kicked off 2009 by jumping in to the Gulf of Mexico with about 200 other morons at "high noon" in Perdido Key. It was cold, to say the least. People were dressed up like crazies: had a Batman, a very fat man dressed as a baby, some questionable college guys in questionable attire, and tons of Alabama fans (too bad they lost, suckers).
Anywho, this blog is back, though I don't know who'll read it. I'll post both blogs on facebook to keep everyone abreast. So, let's get personal.
People I know (I guess people I don't know as well) are having babies. Some who will be great parents, some that surprise me they know how to dress themselves, and some that live in the largest neighborhood of LaLaLand.
Recently I began thinking. Babies cost money. Birthing costs money. Mothers cost money. So, if I have to get all three, I'm thinking it's going to cost some dough. You get joy, you get a family, and you get a blessing, but my mind isn't sinking in to those ideas.
We had a scare that maybe we were going to have one a while ago. Luckily, it was a false alarm. I played the "disappointed" card but felt a bit serious. I think being a dad will be a great thing. Have someone who looks up to for the first ten years of his or her life, then spend the next 20 years thinking you're an idiot. But the love shared between parents and kids is always so strong, no matter how much they may argue or disagree. I'm huge into family. I love my family. I have two great parents who love each other and me. I have in-laws who do the same.
What I'm beating around the bush to say is, I want a family, but the overwhelming idea of my thin wallet becoming even more anorexic is the part that gets me. I know it's logical to feel this way, but I just don't want to have the stresses of life steal the fun I'll have in the future.
Can't be anxious, right? I'm going to keep trying not to be. I'm no worrier, and I'm surely not going to become one anytime soon. I'll let the joy overwhelm me instead.
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So tonight, I'm heading back to spin class. I've missed over the past two weeks because of holidays and travel, so I'm diving in head first. In fact, one of my New Year's Resolutions is to compete and complete a triathlon. I figure I can do a Sprint Triathlon and then work up to longer distances.
Spin and training is going to be a priority. I don't know if I'll have the time later in life (with kids and all) so I'm going to use the time I have. We're not promised another minute, so I'm going to make the most of the ones I have.
I went through my calendar to plan out the next weeks and realized the next weeks need to be the next months. The first half of 2009 is going to be busy. We've got Meg's birthday this weekend, helping with friend's church function at the end of the month, Phillip's baseball games, 5K races and on and on and on.
I know we'll be busy, but I hope we'll use the business to remember it's better than being bored. Business, to me, means we've got things to do with those we love.
Speaking of busy, I'm going to get back to work. I'll keep this personal blog updated with things about me (how selfish does that sound?).
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